Hi all,
I'm 35 yo, British guy and in March 2022 - May 2022 ran Deca for 3 months straight with no PCT. I was missold it and told it was Ibutamoren (a growth-hormone secretagogue), which it was not. I wouldn't have ran Deca alone with no PCT otherwise.
Around May 2022, I realised I had lost most of the sensation in the head of my penis and my libido had decreased significantly. Since then the numbness has continued to get worse and worse. My libido has essentially flatlined and my penis is cold to the touch. I have always had a very high libido my whole life and this experience has been really tough to manage (especially after the pandemic when I spent nearly 18 months living alone!).
To maybe complicate matters, I did run oral Finesteride for 3 months in Nov 22 - Jan 23 which I stopped. That could have made matters worse but I was already numb downstairs so....
My ratings are as follows :
-Sex drive: 1/10
-Erection quality: 6/10 - I have 0 morning wood or in the day. It's only when I watch porn can I get mildly hard.
-Orgasm Quality 4/10 - My ejaculate doesn't forcefully exit - it's much weaker coming out and doesn't fully expel so there's dribbling afterward
-Ability to experience negative emotion - 7/10
-Ability to experience positive emotion - 4/10
-Ability to experience feelings of confidence (feeling good about being you) - 2/10 - I've realised how much my former sex drive was a huge part of my confidence
-Feelings of pleasure seeking - 3/10
-Feelings of hunger (thinking about what you will eat and salivating) - 2/10
-Ability to handle stress/ not be affected by stress - 6/10
-Memory and cognitive ability - 4/10 - I'm nowhere near as sharp as I used to be. I have to run meetings with work and now my mind often goes blank, mid-meeting
-Sleep quality - 4/10 - I used to hit the pillow and not move for 8 hours. I'm now very inconsistent. For the first year I used to have nightsweats - perhaps my body trying to fix itself but that's stopped now entirely.
-Energy levels - 6/10
-Depression - 6/10
-Anxiety 5/10
Last year, after really struggling with the NHS and waiting months and months to see anybody I contacted a Endocrynologist who put me on Proviron for 2 months (one 25mg tablet, twice per day) - made me slightly more hard, but still no sensation. We then moved onto HCG and I've been running that for 2 months (500iu three times per week). It's brought the fullness back to my penis and balls - they're the previous size they were (when not aroused) but there is still no sensation, no morning wood, no libido.
I've read on here that guys are taking much higher dosages of HCG...this is something I might try. Any results from using Clematis Combination Drops?
I have an appointment with the Andrology Clinic at UCLH in July and then with the Neurologist at UCLH to have a Uronology Test but that's all the way in November 2024 - and the timelines are stressing me out.
I've read that the ND can interfere with the morphophysiology of the prostate as well as cause the ED via suppression of the HPG axis. I'm going to ask both professionals at the above departments to scan my dick to see if there is any degeneration in seminiferous tubules caused by ND as it can lead to a spermatogenic dysfunction.
Any tips, advice or pointers greatly appreciated.
Thanks all,
R
PS I tried to add a screen grab of blood results but the photo attachment is the same as the link to the left of it